Life's Reminder

If things depress you, it’s because you allow yourself to be affected by it. Results are just results, and our emotions are our emotions. People draw attachment to outcomes and situations which affect their emotional state. Every situation there is always something to be learned, & if we are able to take away the important lessons, we will eventually achieve what we set out to do.”

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Unworthy

Seeing you with her,
Been together behind me,
How could you do that?
Don't you know it hurts?

I bet you don't,
Guys are all alike!
No point hating you at all,
I should be strong.

Without you, I can live,
Forgetting you, although it's hard,
I'll definitely stand back up,
Continue my life without you.

It's because of you,
I learn a brand new lesson,
Do not trust people easily,
See people with clean eyes not blind.

Luckily friends are here,
To support me,
They cheer me and everything,
Without you, I have them.

깁은 blurry Yah! I wrote for ching eonni!

Friday, September 24, 2010

You’re Beautiful quotes

"You were almost there… just one more step and you would’ve found me.” – Shin Woo  

“Even in a place where reporters and fans don’t chase after me, why is a pig chasing me?” – Tae Kyung

“I told myself I couldn’t see you, but you’re someone who draws the eye. But if I see you, it hurts and makes things tough for me. After only living at the convent, I came to live in this land of stars and was hit by electricity and lost my senses. I flew up right into the heavens and then crashed down to the ground. Fireworks exploded in my head and in one moment a thundering rainstorm crashed down on me. Since I’ve left this star-land, I saw the path I am to live. I would have to leave the star-land and just watch it from afar. If I see the brightest-shining star close up, it’s so blinding to the eyes that it hurts. That is why I am going to go far away.” – Mi Nam

“Don’t be anywhere where I can’t see you!” – Tae Kyung

“Then I can’t hold on to you. I wanted to be able to see you well when you came back, so I was trying to see even in the dark. Every day, I even ate the carrots and spinach I hate, because I worried that I might lose you in the dark. Because I didn’t want to lose you. But I can’t even hold on to you when I can see you well.” – Tae Kyung

“I bet you didn’t let her go, you shoved her away. Letting go is only something you can say when you’ve held on till the end. Have you held on to her? What you saw in Japan was me holding on to her till the very end. It must have looked pathetic and laughable to you, but because I took it all the way, I could let her go. You didn’t do that, did you? You just stood there in your place and didn’t think of following her when she said it was hard, didn’t you? Fine, keep preserving your pride and stand there until she runs far away, mighty Hwang Tae-kyung.” – Shin Woo

“It’s not a crime to like someone.” – Jeremy

“You’re listening now, aren’t you? It’s so bright here, and your side is so dark that I can’t see you. Please, don’t be where I can’t see you! Come to where I can see you. Give permission to let me see you.” – Tae Kyung

“Even so, the moon has its uses. Rather than pointlessly brightening up an already bright day, it gives light on a dark night. Isn’t that useful?” – Mi Nam

“I’m going to keep telling you, so listen good every day. I love you.” – Tae Kyung

“When I thought you were a guy, I was okay with it. When I found out you were a girl, I was okay with it. But if you like him, I can’t be okay with it. Why? Why wasn’t it me? I told you about my treasure bus, and I let you close to Jolie and I was going to sing a song only for you. Why don’t you like me?”
– Jeremy

“He’s like a bright, shining star. When I receive that light, I feel brighter and also darker. When it’s bright I get my hopes up, and when it darkens I feel disappointment. I hate myself for this and feel ashamed.” – Mi Nam

“Seeing how you worried about me even though you were that sick, you seem to have some loyalty. Seeing you enduring through it, you’ve also got some spirit. I haven’t wanted to accept you and wanted to reject you, but because of this, I’m accepting you. I’m on the same team as you now, so I feel a duty to look after you, and I’ll take responsibility for your affairs, too.” – Tae Kyung

“I don’t want to admit it, but I’ve been dumped. Believing that she would come back when she was feeling better was my delusion. Pig-Rabbit looked totally fine. I was the only one hanging on. Before things get any worse, I’d better reply that I’m okay.” – Tae Kyung

“I see you very well right now. You can’t see me because it’s too bright, can you? When I couldn’t see you, were you always crying like that?” – Tae Kyung

“We’re one team now. You said you came here today because you didn’t want anyone to be hurt. If that’s what you want, then keep acting as a man through the end. Even if you want to quit now, we can’t let that happen. We’ll take responsibility for you, so you take responsibility for us, too.”
– Tae Kyung

“You can’t even see anything properly! You’re well-off on your own, so bright on your own that those around you can’t see in the dark! You can’t see anything properly and you don’t know anything, so why are you acting like this? Why are you angry with me, who’s just trying to endure? Just leave me in the dark. Who asked for you to look at me?” – Mi Nam

“Yes, because of this song, my mother was abandoned. You were also abandoned by your mother, so you must been very hurt. But my mother also felt such a huge pain that she gave birth to me alone and died. ‘Go make friends?’ How could I make friends with your mother? Are you so busy thinking only of yourself that you cannot bother to see anything else? I’m sorry that I knew about your mother and didn’t say anything. You looked so sad that I could not let on that I knew. I’m sorry that I knew you were remaking my father’s song and didn’t say anything. I did not know the story behind it. You told me not to show myself to you. But it’s hard for me to see you, too. That’s why I’m going far away, where I won’t be seen. So there will be no reason for us to feel pain as we see each other any longer.” – Mi Nyeo

“When I’ve disliked a person in the past, I kept disliking them, because they kept doing things I disliked. I disliked you from the moment I saw you, and sure enough you did the thing I hate most. It’s clear that you’ll keep doing things I hate and that I’ll keep hating you. So that forgiveness you talk about won’t happen now, or ever.” – Tae Kyung

“That writer wrote, ‘Everyone who doesn’t love is guilty.’ That means that anyone who loves, no matter who they love, is guiltless.” – Jeremy

“I’m going to keep telling you, so listen good every day. I love you.” – Tae Kyung

“We’re one team now. You said you came here today because you didn’t want anyone to be hurt. If that’s what you want, then keep acting as a man through the end. Even if you want to quit now, we can’t let that happen. We’ll take responsibility for you, so you take responsibility for us, too.”
– Tae Kyung

“Even though I haven’t confessed to her yet, I feel like I’ve been rejected a hundred times already.” – Shin Woo

cr.  http://asiandramaquotes.wordpress.com/index/youre-beautiful/

Saturday, September 11, 2010

LEMON YOU GINGER ME! - An Intriguing Poem

Lemon You Ginger Me is a very intriguing poem by Grace Chia, a Singaporean poet. We took up this kind of poem in our Literary Criticism Class were we obviously criticize various poetry and such written literature. Honestly speaking the first i read this poem it really gave me an intriguing thought why on earth the poet did this kind of poetry structure! May i suggest that before you would react to this poem, please think closely of the deeper meaning. Enjoy reading folks!
Lemon You Ginger Me
by: Grace Chia
                       I  want    to      jam     you
              I want us to strawberry each
              other - would  you like me to
                chilli   you?  Ooh , as   sambal 
             belachan as  possible until we
                Tom Yam  together ;  in   your
            mushroom,   you  cheese     all
            over me spreading orange juice
            and Ribena ; hey Mr. Kentucky,
            I think of your bean soup and I
            explode for bread or for wurst;
            unzip my dirty cheap cider and
            I became Irish cream, could be
    Baileys    could    be  your  blue   cheese
     with that herbal stench ; Honey, come
       on and olive oil me- you the nutter
            and  I  the acorn - wings ! My
              darling, wings! If Thames
                  be the choice, then
                          Twix it!
                             Cuz
                            Coke
                              is
                             It!
                              .

Live A Life That Matters

Whether you are ready or not, someday your life will come to an end.
There will be no more sunrise, no minutes, hours, or days.
All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else.
Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance.
It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed.
Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.
So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans and to-do lists will expire.
The wins and loses that once seemed so important will fade away.
It won't matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived at the end.
It won't matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant, even your gender and skin color will be irelevant.
So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?
What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave.
What will matter is not your success, but your significance.
What will matter is not what you learned, but what you taught.
What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered, or encouraged others to emulate your example.
What will matter is not your competence, but your character.
What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you are gone.
What will matter is not your memories, but the memories that in those who live with you.
What will matter is how long you will be remembered by whom and for what.
Living a life that matters doesn't happen by accident.
It's not a matter of circumstances, but of choice.
Choose to live a life that matters.

"CRITICAL RESPONSES on LITERARY APPROACHES"

PREFACE
This book “Critical Responses to Literary Approaches” is a compilation of my exploration papers in my subject “Literary Criticism”. It has been written to be used as a reference for individuals who wish to search for critical analysis on the following movies: (1) Mad Love, (2) The Unsaid, (3) The Pianist and (4) Naked Weapon. Each movie has its application of approaches; Psychoanalytic Approach on the movie Mad Love; Archetypal Approach on the movie The Unsaid; Cultural Materialism Approach on The Pianist; and Feminine Approach on the movie Naked Weapon. It is appropriate for students enrolled in a Literary Criticism course, for those who are writing an exploration paper or dissertation, and for those who are lovers of literature. They should understand and think deeply about what is the concept of the movie, the purpose of the writer in writing such literary works and how to analyze such piece of writing. They should be able to use this knowledge to critically analyze the literary works that appear in movie houses, in our home and videos.
Literary Criticism is the discussion of literature, including description, analysis, interpretation and evaluation of literary works. Critical analysis is attained only through the combination of critical thinking and the urge to study such literary work. Students may find it exciting and interesting to read literary works at the same time they will know how to value world’s literary piece of art.
This book features the problems related to certain approaches, diagrams, analysis, summary of the story and the author’s conclusions, implications and recommendations.
This book is made for everyone. Enjoy reading!
RITCHEL C. SERVANDO, BSED-III  

    
DEDICATION
This book is dedicated to my family. First of all to my mother Tessie, who is trying her best and everything to support us in everything she could do just to finish our studies. To my older brothers, Raul, Rhuel, Russel, even though your criticisms had put down my confidence, still you remain loving and caring older siblings. To all my friends inside and outside West Negros College most especially to John Mark Nono, Amarie Chavez, Raul Malijan Jr., Rechel Racho, Josepino Malvas and to all my classmates in ENGL 400 (Literary Criticism class),thank you for all the fun and laughter guys! To my dearest teacher Mrs. Ma. Teresa A. Asistido, Ma’am you’re the best! To my special someone, Jonathan, thank you Dad for all the love, encouragement and the moral support you have given me while I’m struggling in doing this work and I know you will be there for me whenever and wherever I’m in need. To my late father Johnny Servando, ‘Pang I miss you and I love you. And lastly, to the One above, for giving me such wonderful life.

...........anyone who wishes to read its content just let me know, ok?.... ciao!

Major Diff. Between d Book FRANKENSTEIN & d Popular Perceptions

-" Frankenstein" is the name of the scientist who made the creature, not the monster itself (although, in a sense, the name does fit them both)
-The creature is not an ugly, inarticulate, mindless eight-foot lurcher with bolts in his neck. He is graceful, intelligent ( he can read and write), very articulate, and has no protruding hardware ( although he is extremely ugly and eight-foot tall).
-His brain did not come from a criminal's corpse.
-No big laboratory scene, no lightning to animate the corpse ( although there is good deal of lightning throughout the book).
-No hunchbacked assistant.
-No mob villagers, no burning mill.

Friday, September 10, 2010

My precious..

February 20. 2008
Neo Caiel Servando was born at 7:30am..

He sleeps so peacefully... so quiet.... so cute! =)

He brought a different breeze in the family..

4months after.... he became cyanotic.. he woke up and cry in the wee hours in the morning but not that usual cry of babies.. it took hours of cry till dawn breaks. That's the time we seek the help of the experts. We went to various Doctors but then they had the same findings... My son has Congenital Heart Disease (Tetralogy of Fallot) 

Tetralogy of Fallot (TOF) is a congenital heart defect which is classically understood to involve four anatomical abnormalities (although only three of them are always present). It is the most common cyanotic heart defect, and the most common cause of blue baby syndrome.
It was described in 1672 by Niels Stensen, in 1773 by Edward Sandifort, and in 1888 by the French physician Étienne-Louis Arthur Fallot, for whom it is named. 

Tetralogy of Fallot
Classification and external resources

Diagram of a healthy heart and one suffering from tetralogy of Fallot
ICD-10 Q21.3
ICD-9 745.2
OMIM 187500
DiseasesDB 4660
MedlinePlus 001567
eMedicine emerg/575
MeSH D013771

Primary four malformations

"Tetralogy" denotes a four-part phenomenon in various fields, including literature, and the four parts the syndrome's name implies are its four signs. This is not to be confused with the similarly named teratology, a field of medicine concerned with abnormal development and congenital malformations, which thereby includes tetralogy of Fallot as part of its subject matter.
As such, by definition, tetralogy of Fallot involves exactly four heart malformations which present together:
Tetralogy of Fallot
Normal heart
Condition Description
A: Pulmonary stenosis A narrowing of the right ventricular outflow tract and can occur at the pulmonary valve (valvular stenosis) or just below the pulmonary valve (infundibular stenosis). Infundibular pulmonic stenosis is mostly caused by overgrowth of the heart muscle wall (hypertrophy of the septoparietal trabeculae), however the events leading to the formation of the overriding aorta are also believed to be a cause. The pulmonic stenosis is the major cause of the malformations, with the other associated malformations acting as compensatory mechanisms to the pulmonic stenosis. The degree of stenosis varies between individuals with TOF, and is the primary determinant of symptoms and severity. This malformation is infrequently described as sub-pulmonary stenosis or subpulmonary obstruction.
B: Overriding aorta An aortic valve with biventricular connection, that is, it is situated above the ventricular septal defect and connected to both the right and the left ventricle. The degree to which the aorta is attached to the right ventricle is referred to as its degree of "override." The aortic root can be displaced toward the front (anteriorly) or directly above the septal defect, but it is always abnormally located to the right of the root of the pulmonary artery. The degree of override is quite variable, with 5-95% of the valve being connected to the right ventricle.
C: ventricular septal defect (VSD) A hole between the two bottom chambers (ventricles) of the heart. The defect is centered around the most superior aspect of the ventricular septum (the outlet septum), and in the majority of cases is single and large. In some cases thickening of the septum (septal hypertrophy) can narrow the margins of the defect.
D: Right ventricular hypertrophy The right ventricle is more muscular than normal, causing a characteristic boot-shaped (coeur-en-sabot) appearance as seen by chest X-ray. Due to the misarrangement of the external ventricular septum, the right ventricular wall increases in size to deal with the increased obstruction to the right outflow tract. This feature is now generally agreed to be a secondary anomaly, as the level of hypertrophy generally increases with age.
There is anatomic variation between the hearts of individuals with tetralogy of Fallot. Primarily, the degree of right ventricular outflow tract obstruction varies between patients and generally determines clinical symptoms and disease progression.

Additional anomalies

In addition, tetralogy of Fallot may present with other anatomical anomalies, including:
  1. stenosis of the left pulmonary artery, in 40% of patients
  2. a bicuspid pulmonary valve, in 40% of patients
  3. right-sided aortic arch, in 25% of patients
  4. coronary artery anomalies, in 10% of patients
  5. a foramen ovale or atrial septal defect, in which case the syndrome is sometimes called a pentalogy of Fallot
  6. an atrioventricular septal defect
  7. partially or totally anomalous pulmonary venous return
  8. forked ribs and scoliosis
Tetralogy of Fallot with pulmonary atresia (pseudotruncus arteriosus) is a severe variant in which there is complete obstruction (atresia) of the right ventricular outflow tract, causing an absence of the pulmonary trunk during embryonic development. In these individuals, blood shunts completely from the right ventricle to the left where it is pumped only through the aorta. The lungs are perfused via extensive collaterals from the systemic arteries, and sometimes also via the ductus arteriosus.

Diagnosis

The abnormal "coeur-en-sabot" (boot-like) appearance of a heart with tetralogy of Fallot is easily visible via chest x-ray, and before more sophisticated techniques became available, this was the definitive method of diagnosis. Congenital heart defects are now diagnosed with echocardiography, which is quick, involves no radiation, is very specific, and can be done prenatally.

Treatment

Emergency management of tet spells

Prior to corrective surgery, children with tetralogy of Fallot may be prone to consequential acute hypoxia (tet spells), characterized by sudden cyanosis and syncope. These may be treated with beta-blockers such as propranolol, but acute episodes may require rapid intervention with morphine to reduce ventilatory drive and a vasopressor such as epinephrine, phenylephrine, or norepinephrine to increase blood pressure. Oxygen is effective in treating spells because it is a potent pulmonary vasodilator and systemic vasoconstrictor. This allows more blood flow to the lungs. There are also simple procedures such as squatting and the knee chest position which increases aortic wave reflection, increasing pressure on the left side of the heart, decreasing the right to left shunt thus decreasing the amount of deoxygenated blood entering the systemic circulation.[

Palliative surgery

The condition was initially thought untreatable until surgeon Alfred Blalock, cardiologist Helen B. Taussig, and lab assistant Vivien Thomas at Johns Hopkins University developed a palliative surgical procedure, which involved forming an anastomosis between the subclavian artery and the pulmonary artery (See movie "Something the Lord Made"). It was actually Helen Taussig who convinced Alfred Blalock that the shunt was going to work. This redirected a large portion of the partially oxygenated blood leaving the heart for the body into the lungs, increasing flow through the pulmonary circuit, and greatly relieving symptoms in patients. The first Blalock-Thomas-Taussig shunt surgery was performed on 15-month old Eileen Saxon on November 29, 1944 with dramatic results.
The Potts shunt and the Waterston-Cooley shunt are other shunt procedures which were developed for the same purpose. These are no longer used.
Currently, Blalock-Thomas-Taussig shunts are not normally performed on infants with TOF except for severe variants such as TOF with pulmonary atresia (pseudotruncus arteriosus).

Total surgical repair

The Blalock-Thomas-Taussig procedure, initially the only surgical treatment available for Tetralogy of Fallot, was palliative but not curative. The first total repair of Tetralogy of Fallot was done by a team led by C. Walton Lillehei at the University of Minnesota in 1954 on a 11-year-old boy. Successful total repair on infants has had success from 1981, with research indicating that it has a comparatively low mortality rate. 
Total repair of Tetralogy of Fallot initially carried a high mortality risk. This risk has gone down steadily over the years. Surgery is now often carried out in infants one year of age or younger with less than 5% perioperative mortality. The open-heart surgery is designed (1) to relieve the right ventricular outflow tract stenosis by careful resection of muscle and (2) to repair the VSD with a Gore-Tex patch or a homograft. Additional reparative or reconstructive surgery may be done on patients as required by their particular cardiac anatomy.

Prognosis

Untreated, tetralogy of Fallot rapidly results in progressive right ventricular hypertrophy due to the increased resistance on the right ventricle. This progresses to heart failure (dilated cardiomyopathy) which begins in the right heart and often leads to left heart failure. Actuarial survival for untreated tetralogy of Fallot is approximately 75% after the first year of life, 60% by four years, 30% by ten years, and 5% by forty years.
Patients who have undergone total surgical repair of tetralogy of Fallot have improved hemodynamics and often have good to excellent cardiac function after the operation with some to no exercise intolerance (New York Heart Association Class I-II). Surgical success and long-term outcome greatly depends on the particular anatomy of the patient and the surgeon's skill and experience with this type of repair.
Ninety percent of patients with total repair as infants develop a progressively leaky pulmonary valve as the heart grows to its adult size but the valve does not. Patients also often have damage to the electrical system of the heart from surgical incisions, causing abnormalities as detected by EKG and/or arrhythmias.
Long-term follow up studies show that patients with total repair of TOF are at risk for sudden cardiac death and for heart failure. Therefore, lifetime follow-up care by an adult congenital cardiologist is recommended to monitor these risks and to recommend treatment, such as interventional procedures or re-operation, if it becomes necessary.
The use of antibiotics is no longer required by cardiologists and varies from case to case.



Now, my son is as active as a normal child at the age of 2. He still needs to undergo operation for him to survive. We are still looking for help to some organization who will help us financially for his operation. I know God is just there behind us and he knows what will happen next.